Since when do you learn anything in school anyways?

Day 28


To start, I have to say it's only been 28 days into 2010 and it's been a long year already; productive...but long!

Today's topic is education in general...public education in specific and the task of learning how to "un-learn" that which was force fed to many of us for so many years...this topic was inspired actually in a classroom (go figure) while watching a movie on Christopher Columbus. Yup, one of the greatest force fed incidents of ignorance in my opinion was the story of Christopher Columbus, how he "discovered" America, made friends with the Indians, "civilized" them...and made happy thanksgiving...nope his ass got LOST in the Bahamas, he has nothing to do with thanksgiving and if I hear the native people referred to as Indians one more time I'll go crazy...Indians are clearly from India...

I've noticed an institutional trend since a very young age...you are only equipped with the tools necessary to barely get through that institution. This is true of hospitals, jails/prisons, foster homes/orphanages, other service/product oriented institutions, and my focal point schools.From a purely business perspective it's absolutely necessary for you to create a sort of dependence on your product or service. It increases the amount of money you make, decreases the amount of work you have to do and makes you, your product or service, and the value you have a priority to those "in need".However from a psychological aspect it’s extremely crippling and the source for so much that is viewed as "bad" in the world today.

Everything and I repeat EVERYTHING you interact with, your feelings about it, your method to approach or deal with it, how you feel about yourself, others, what you're interested in, so on and so fourth is a result of a LEARNED interaction, behavior, or response.

We are taught to become sheep...to follow all rules, signs, and regulations without question...to go for routine check ups and dentist appointments and put money in doctors and dentist’s pockets but not how to take care of ourselves so that we may not need to go. To ignore doors with a "do not enter" sign on it even in the event of an emergency lest we be told by someone of "authority" that it's ok. And who may I ask is responsible for that authority? ...right...I hear crickets.

My whole life I was encouraged to be a "non conformist" of sorts and to question everything...to think for myself as the question was asked of me time and time again "what does your brain tell you?" and thus I could read, recognize, and regurgitate the bulls*it "learned" in school, and then go out on my own and piece things together for what they were.

And as a result I was always a star in school because I was "smart"...no sir, not me...no smarter than anyone else in my classes...I just questioned, and followed up on what I didn't understand. I processed and thought about the information I received and then came to conclusions that I could share rather than recite information like a robot...my parents also didn't sugar coat or "age appropriate" any information that I may have been concerned about knowing. I encourage you all to take the time to reevaluate and relearn everything you "think" you've learned...especially you religious ones out there...how could I forget my next favorite institution...THE CHURCH! ;-)

Let's all snap out of the matrix guys...this day and age there is no excuse to be blind...the 9 year old's walking around with blackberries literally have access to more power on their hip than any "school" can offer. READ READ READ AND EDUCATE YOURSELF!because once you graduate from high school, or get your multiple degrees and owe the government thousands of dollars in dept and realize that all you earned was a piece of paper and NOT an education...you'll be a heartbroken, ignorant, and blind, sheep with degrees.

Crazy Insane or Insane Crazy? (Day 9)

Welcome to 2010



We're 9 days in...lets get it! I must say, my mission to expose the truth is going well. The last post didn't get quite the response I was hoping for...however that's in large part due to the poor marketing I've done...*sigh* It's a work in progress.... However, of the people who did read the last post, I must say I'm satisfied with the responses I did receive. =) Today's post is appropriately titled Crazy Insane or Insane Crazy as I'm going to discuss a sensation known to most of my peers as depression.

Here's the disclaimer front and center. I'm no licensed psychologist, I'm still learning and studying, and while my view is more than likely a controversial one...it's food for thought as any and all posts I make are.

...So there's my song and dance to keep the "professionals" (with quotes and without) off my back :), now to business. I've been throwing around the concept with a lot of my friends that depression, or the sensation a lot of us misuse as being depression, is actually something that can help and if not better, put into perspective our lives. Let's examine my statement... think about the symptoms of this state...EVERYTHING stops! You don't want to go out and party, you become anti-social and want to be alone, you're often sad or upset about the way things in your life are going...any of this sound familiar? There are a host of other symptoms but we'll focus on these and I'll explain how they can be "positized" haha


1) Everything stops... I have a friend with whom I shared a concept known as personal reflection time with at one point..and basically that time was for you to sit alone, review your circumstances, decide what you liked, what you didn't like, and then making moves to do something about it. It was YOUR time to be angry, happy, etc...without worrying about insincere "are you ok" or "what's wrong" statements. Well, all too often we forget about the "me" and "me" says ok...now it's "me time"...code red, LOCK DOWN.


2) Social life is murdered...
"let's go out tonight?"
"na...I don't feel like it."
....later that night you're kicking walls because you know you should have went and imagine your friends having a blast while you look at your wall paint or scream into your pillow...figuratively of course. Well, now you have ALOT more time to think about what's going on in your life.


3) AHHHH!!! Here, the anger sets in...I'm upset for no reason, I don't want to bathe, I don't want to shave, hell I won't even change my underwear...ok that's an extreme but hey, it happens.


Still trying to find the good in all of this are we? Well some of your minds work faster than others at putting the pieces together but depression, at least in accordance with the symptoms listed and my definition of it, provides you with a lot of idle time...GOTTDAMNN! Well what do we do with all this time? MASTURBATE!!! haha...though I'm joking this is all to often the case...not physically but mentally! (minds out of the gutter guys =P) We start to keep habits that make us feel good for a short, often too short, period of time just to end up not having done anything...alcohol, tobacco, drugs, sex...and of course these lead to things such as poor decision making, diseases, car accidents, babies, and all kinds of other mental/physical health detriments.


TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU, with all that time on your hands you should be getting acquainted with the "me" in you...the whole reason for code red shutdown anyways...Look at what's making you unhappy, what you can do about it to either cope better, or totally change your situation. Look at yourself; are you eating well? Are you bathing? Shaving? Go get a haircut, your nails done, a new piercing, a tattoo, something different and for YOU! Find something or someone to believe in (God often helps :) ), someone to believe in you, believe in yourself ,and have faith that with all the positive energy you are radiating that things will work out...then attack the world head on! I'm not saying some days you won't cry, or clench your teeth, or pull out your hair...what I'm saying is be TRUTHFUL with YOU about YOU...don't worry about what society says about what you should be doing, thinking, saying, or how you should be looking...you gotta play the game, but YOU gotta play it. I had a short depressed stint myself this winter...it was bad...then I realized what I'm writing you now and I have to say I may not have everything I want...but I'm damn happy with the way things are going in my life. Cut a few people off here, made a few new friends there, let some important people know they were appreciated and important...then I just had faith and did my thing!




I hope you all have enjoyed and got something out of this....also...my new years plan is still on track...I ran one morning and got sick..but I'm still working out, haven't caved to the pressures of fast-food, alcohol, or any of the such...and believe me I've been tempted! I'm doing my thing...any questions? Twitter user name is Loco515, and there is the comment box appropriately placed...I also have email...rahk2100@yahoo.com :) Thank you, comment generously..and I'll keep bringing you more food for thought!

Day 1

Welcome to 2010

It's the first day of a new year.I'm a man on a mission...To expose the TRUTH!....I find that of no fault of your own, (or my own) we have sandstorms in our mind that bury truths about ourselves that we might not want to accept. Moreover, the truths that don't get completely covered by the sand, we make excuses for...either "declaring" that we'll fix it and becoming the expert procrastinator, or finding a reason or excuse as to why it's acceptable. Let’s use me as an example; I'm a 19 year old who on appearance is healthy, happy, in good shape, and hasn't a worry in the world. Upon further inspection, if my attitude doesn't fool you, my intellect will...whereas I'm often mislabeled or misjudged for always having "the answer" and always being "happy"...Hey, if this satisfies you, it satisfies me :)

However I'm not healthy as I could be, far from happy most days, in awful shape, and rotate my worries nightly so as not to dwell on one so much so that I become circumstantially depressed.

I have isolated my sandstorm and am now working on uncovering the sand dunes!! The question most of you might (or should) be asking is how can such a misconception exist? As a matter of fact, a common question I receive is how I manage to project such an image...and for so long? Honestly I don't know...generally the answer I give is that it's taken many years of practice, conditioning, and yet I'm still mastering it. But another big part of this is being truthful with myself. I know who I am, what I am and am not feeling, how I look under my clothes, and most importantly if I'm comfortable with that. Whatever I project is completely a matter of fun house mirrors to you all...I like that...welcome to my "fun house"!

 Being a student of the human mind, it comes almost as second nature to me to analyze, diagnose, and "fix" others...To understand and manipulate the mind of others wouldn't be such an amazing, (or possible) feat had I not a certain level of understanding of my own mind, and a certain ability to manipulate, (or select who I allow to manipulate) my own mind. I'm certain by now I've lost many, and for those of you who have held on I thank you this ramble will be over soon...One day I sat in on a therapy session with a licensed therapist and she said to me, "well, what do you want to talk about?" I answered her basically by telling her I just wanted to talk, I proceeded to tell her everything that was wrong with me and how I was going to fix it. She sat amazed and declared that I am one of the most self aware people she's met and she really doesn't understand the purpose of my visit....I smiled and went on my way :)